It's rainy on the xxth of the month. My feelings are also feeling a light rain. Finally, this day has come... Why am I taking such an adventure? Lately, I've been frustrated because there isn't enough stimulation at work or in my private life. It's my second year at my current job, and I'm not doing anything particularly important. My female senior told me that "the main job of a female employee is to make the atmosphere at work lively," but that's not very rewarding. In your second year, the atmosphere of being pampered starts to fade. Well, I guess that's also influenced by the presence of my boyfriend at work. We've been dating for about 8 months, so I guess it's the second longest I've ever dated. For now. He's a kind person who was always concerned about me when I was feeling anxious about my new workplace. I didn't have a boyfriend at the time, so I fell in love with him right away. But, you know, is he too kind? He's not a very forceful man, or the type to restrict me, or anything like that. That's why I've been feeling unsatisfied lately... I don't want to break up, though. I was feeling a bit frustrated, so on the way home after I invited my best friend out for a drink. A suspicious scout called out to me, and I was drunk and started talking to him, and things progressed quickly and I ended up appearing in an adult video. Looking back on it, I laugh at the silly reason, but it's not like I hate sex, and as long as my boyfriend doesn't find out, it'll be fine. He doesn't seem interested in adult videos... Ah, I'm so nervous! I haven't been this nervous since I showed my naked body to my first boyfriend. I still have time, but I'm so nervous that I'm writing this. People who have had sex have said things like, Your breasts are soft and feel good! I want to massage them forever! I've heard that I don't do anything too weird, so I'm sure there's nothing dangerous about it. Ah, I'll take a deep breath and head out now. -- Excerpt from Kojima Risa's diary (some parts without permission)
